| i've been to Duncan and back, and i must say in two words, TOO good. i warn you now, be ready for a long read.
so another chronicle of my life started last thursday night. a few days before then i was told by my boss from the on-call job that my presence would be needed in the small town of duncan over on vancouver isle to set up these tedious pieces of equipment of whom only a few know how to set up 'n take out to run. i already knew in my head that i definitly didn't want to go all the way there from my past experience last year. first of all i just wanted to relax over the weekend; second, the dead heat would be such a bitch cause i know i'll be outside from morning to night, and third, i highly doubted the guy coming with me would be as fun and eccentric as my other pal from the last time. so i flat out told my boss quote unquote no.
now this came as a surprise to me; in all the 2'n a half years i've been working with him, he's never, ever begged me to do a job for him; last week changed all that. this made me feel a bit guilty cause he's been a pretty generous boss, and i know it would tear me up to turn him down when i damn well know i coulda worked the job, so i gave him the green light. little did i know the guy comin with me would be one of my first choices if i were to ever pick a partner. this gave me a huge sign of relief, cause if i was gonna be going with some antisocial melvin for 3 days i woulda freaked.
to skip ahead, the trip was unfucking believeably fun. i seriously had my mental mode set for roadtrip, instead of worktrip.
so onto day 2, i remember finishing setting up the two pieces of equipment in the downtown streets. in duncan every year they got this festival type deal called duncan days which the whole town participates in. so in this escalade of fun this is where we partially step in. the day was going as planned, hot, and going at a decent pace until i took my break. i remember walking aimlessly around these narrow streets until i came across this little chinese restaurant with a small buffet outside the front window. if i was white i'd probably be more selfish for the food, but it was the attractively mysterious, yet obviously bored brunette in the corner of my eye running the exchange of food in her cool shade.. the day suddenly became alot more interesting. i had to test the waters so i threw out some words regarding the comparison of me in the heat 'n her in the shade. she obviously found it amusing and laughed! a beautiful laugh at that, 'n really that was all the jumpstart i needed. so throughout the day i'd stop by and we'd get a talking; i think i seriously abused my break times but im glad devon(dude who came with me) was empathetic 'n cool about it. so the conversations kept rolling and it came that time, that time where i know i had to take some more initiative and attain the phone number. the funny thing was that i was completely comfortable, hardly nervous and she was more than happy to give her cell 'n home # which i must say is one of those feelings like no other. now in my head i was thinking, finish my shift, head back to the hotel, shower up, relax from the sun beaming into my skull, 'n carry on plans with mya -- that completely took a 180. right when i finished my shift, walking with devon to the truck i hear this voice calling my name. i was a little fatigued so i dazily turned my attention to find mya standing there in the street. i was shocked really, so i quickly regain a somewhat rational composure and neared her. we started talking about things to do in duncan that night, and in our good luck it was a friday. i was already assuming she was going to be busy because she would drift on about having some plans later but she would always make it seem like she would drop 'em at the dime of a hat if we ran away together right there. still tired i finally picked up the hints, but seriously i didn't want to do something so right away cause i really wanted some downtime to rest, but quick to thought devon brought up after work dinner, so we all packed into the rickety 1 ton for some drinks 'n appez. lol i still remember when devon was taking myas directions to get outta town, so we took some backroad which was wayyy too narrow for this truck and i still remember like a moment ago when we were turning around this corner and the top box of the truck ran into this building's roof. we were dying laughing 'n eventually backtracked our way for a road more fit for this big beast.
so we're in the restaurant 'n aside from the food i was more involved in some of the intense eye tag we were giving off. i would try to keep it down though cause i hate making people uncomfortable 'n i really didn't want to let devon have that third wheel feeling so we had an open conversation to keep it simple. along the words we came across the idea of all heading back to the hotel to watch some movies, 'n devon would bring this other girl he met at the event. to me 'n devon it sounded just normal, but i didn't think to step outta the box to perceive it from her point of view... coming to some hotel with 3 strangers, to add to the effect our hotel we stayed at has a bad reputation of being 'dirty', and im not talking cleanliness. right then 'n there she gets a phone call from her mom about her whereabouts 'n said her mom was comin to the restaurant. time passes and then this little woman with a very motherly vibe strolls in; some small chit chat ensues about us, where we're from, about our jobs and the hotel idea is immediately written off... BUT an invitation is given to come visit at her place. now if i didn't know what it was like to be in myas shoes when i asked her to come to the hotel, i did right then and there because the situation was completely turned around. we later said our goodbyes and the plans of callback to confirm. all i heard from devon on the way to the hotel was... man that's no good... are you really gonna go?... your gonna be there with HER parents... im definitly not in on this... and so forth. sure his attempt to knock some sense in me was a tad disparaging, but only to an extent. we get to the hotel, 'n this is just what i needed, a little time to think, shower 'n rest. i later find out devon's girl wasn't going to show up cause she got heat stroke so he was disappointed, which didn't help any. time was nearing 11pm now and all i was left was me going to visit her at her place, leaving devon all alone when we were planning to drink all night 'n party, or axe my chances at getting to know this incredibly cute girl and stay somewhat loyal to my pal and drink to work another day. and then that old quote snapped right into my torn mind... " rejection is better than regret." it woulda killed me if i didn't go to visit her, to see her, hear her, and more or less touch her. my mind was set after hearing the now or never statements from devon and i drove through the unbelieveably dark passage to her rural, peaceful establishment to find the porch light on, and her, waiting for me sitting in her doorway. the whole her waiting for me outside completely blew me away, she actualy waited for me from when i called till i came, i could have gotten lost from her directions and never find her place from all the time making her wait to disappointment and eventually settle back in. right then and there i was extremely glad i came and we chatted a good 3 hrs moving from the doorsteps to inside her spacious front room.
the next day we hung out during work, ventured what the small shops in duncan had to offer 'n topped it off with icecream in this cute little parlor. that is the last of when i saw her, and now i'm back home in delta, and her in duncan, a good 3 hrs apart and i ponder now how well do long distance relationships really pan out... was this just a little fling? no, i want this to be something more; i hope that doesn't sound selfish, but im gonna have to go with feelings here.
it was her birthday yesterday and i thought i'd send her an expressive email to try to lure out what she thinks of our situation.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mya!
I felt bad when I called yesterday regarding your birthday 'n you so rightfully put me in my place reminding me it was today instead of monday; subjectively I was like "way to kick it off." i think that's where i proceeded to bring my hand in an arching manner to high five my forehead.
Aside from that though I hope you have a memorable 18th. your friends are probably givin you the red carpet treatment as of now, or green in your case 'n no doubt tonight will be another addiition to drunken tales.
lol mya, you have no idea how many times i got caught staring into nothing last night thinkin about when i came over to your place 'n just sittin there with you talking on your door step when i was manning my post -- i like the way you adore the outdoors, the way you care about others, your spontaneity, the way you swiftly move your left hand through your hair shifting it to one side of your face, lol your ability to lock poor azn friends in the bathroom 'n force him to wear women attire, but Most importantly, I like you. some say i may be pushing you away when i say this, but i feel i wasn't giving it what i had when i had all the opportunity in the world when i was standing there right with you face to face.
You know, I was thinkin about when you said you didn't like the time wasted commuting place to place, but when i think about it, in a weird way i sort of like it, because it adds a little excitement and more to the imagination, making the destination all that much more enjoyable and satisfying; just like when i was driving that rickety old 1 ton when i was coming to your place, even though it wasn't too long of a drive, just following that path of utter darkness, crossing under that little stone bridge 'n by some way in hell i saw tigwell street with no high beams was enough to get that cool anxious feeling in your stomach; and creeping into your driveway finding you waiting for me by your doorway made the trip all that much more worth it.
this is me, (604) xxx-xxxx
love 'n respect,
mark"
put yourself in her shoes 'n give me the brutal honest truth of what you think about it.
ciao for now, and yes, it has been an eventful week.
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